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-Jen

My "Deeply Fine" Journey

My "Deeply Fine" Journey

It's been quiet around here for me. 

I've been paying more attention. 

After reading Shauna Niequist's top selling new release, "Present over Perfect." I was challenged in the best way, a call to action that is exciting and freeing. 

What I’m learning, essentially, is to stand where I am, plain and sometimes tired. Unflashy, profoundly unspectacular. But present and connected and grounded deeply in the love of God, which is changing everything.
— Shauna Niequist

This rootedness intrigues me because I often deal with a million things that fight for my soul. In another chapter, she mentions the way of living, "deeply fine." Rooted, unshakable, sure of identity and purpose. I've been focusing on a few practices lately. 

Speaking positively to myself and about myself.

Being honest about how much I can handle. 

Reminding myself of truth when a lie tries to sneak in. 

Stretching for an hour in the middle of the day.

Assuming the best about others.

Staying centered on what I believe and not worrying too much about what others think of me.

All things I have always believed in, but never the center of my focus. Until now. No more striving for my identity. 

Deeply fine is right where I want to be. Connected to who I am in Christ, living out of that freedom, not walking around looking for someone else to define me. Not worried too much about the man who cut me off or the day that didn't go as planned because...roots, depth, confidence and purpose. These words free me up to untie the knots inside about what others think. The eggshells I was walking on are no longer. I can stop performing for the people in the stands and truly live my life on the field. Live it and stare it in it's wild face with passion, free and rooted.  

The nasty of most of the striving is the desire to please others. A journey I have been on for years and now, and not until my 29th year have I realized just how toxic it can be. 

Truth be told, I would rather that I make everyone happy.  I like when everyone is happy with me and no one has anything bad to say. I hate failing people. But in the process of not failing people, I was failing myself. Letting myself fly around aimlessly, grabbing words and looks from others, letting those define my insides. Unsure of who I am, but as long as I'm liked..I guess I didn't care who I was?! 

To be rooted in who I am in Christ, that even if (and when) I fail people, it doesn't crumble me. I know who I am and I don't have to make everyone happy. What a hard job I was giving to myself! Exhausting! 

Are you trying to please others? Are you deeply fine? Have you given yourself the time and space to be honest with yourself about your purpose and your needs? 

Lastly, I believe the reason to be deeply fine and connected is so that we can be others focused. Kind of ironic. When we are deeply fine, we have the space to love on other people without strings attached. We can see people clearly, including ourselves. There is a simplicity to life and friendship and serving. 

I'm not saying, don't ever care what people think..but, by all means..don't perform for others. Don't do things to make people think you are _________. Do what feels and is right for your soul, and let the competing and striving lay rest. You don't have time for that. 

Alright, let's go live. Let's be free. 

In our worthiness, in our enoughness, deeply rooted in our purpose and our identity. So that we can go live wild and free and deeply fine. We can outpour from a place of truth and see ourself and others with crazy love and gratitude. 

There is nothing more you can do to earn your savior's love for you. You can stop trying to earn it, now that's something to celebrate. 

Speaking of celebrating, time for donuts in my kitchen. 

Sending love. 

 

 

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