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-Jen

30.5

30.5

I am just about 6 months into my 30's and here is what I have learned/am learning at the halfway point. 

Figure out what I like and own it. On yesterday's beach stroll, Drew and I couldn't stop starring at the scene in front of us: a white SUV running, windows down, "Shake your groove thing" blasting out of the windows and two middle-aged women on roller skates with super tight pants and fanny packs...enjoying their freaking life. As the saying goes, "skate like no one is watching?!" Mmm, this truth is my favorite. For a bit, I was overly influenced by what other people loved. I thought I should maybe love that they love. Not necessarily, I am all for trying new things, but I believe there is MUCH passion for life right inside of us. Sometimes we just have to listen and stay in our lane and then get after it. 

Remove "should" from my vocabulary. You guys, we get to make decisions and choices like grown ups! This can be a good or bad thing, but I'm thinking it's good news. We can say "yes," "no," and "that doesn't work for me/my family." So often I would force something because I thought I should be doing it. Someone else is doing it, therefore, I should probably try it/do it/say yes. Before I make a decision where I have freedom (i.e. what to do with a day off, what attitude to have, to reply yes or no) I sit with the options for a bit. Is this the best for me, for my kiddos, for my husband? Does this align with my values, goals, beliefs? Is this going to stress me out in a bad way? What does my soul need most? 

It's okay that everything is not as I thought it would be. Quite frankly, I thought I would just be starting a family, have a few years into my career and feel more like an adult. Like I would magically become mature, always know the right thing to say, and no longer be attracted to Forever 21 styles. Ha! One day at a time, baby. Working on growing my insides so I can be the best human, that's the goal. All the other stuff may or may not mature. Who knows, they don't check your ID at Forever 21, do they? I'm also pretty sure that old grannies who listen to Katy Perry and wear huge sunglasses are the coolest anyway, right? Wow, I really am obsessed with aging.

Remember, this life is not forever. See, I told you I think a lot about getting older. Something about getting older changed perspective. Holy heavens, they were right..it really does fly by. I think it's pretty healthy to think about the brevity of human life. It provides a litmus test for what really matters. I told Drew the other day that I want to be a elderly woman who is still making moves in the world. To which he replied, "well, I'm assuming the elderly who are making moves were probably making moves when they were younger too." Touché. Let's start living now how we want to live tomorrow.

What are you learning right now? 

After seeing this picture blown up, I am also learning that a good hair serum probably goes a long way. ;) 

Also, will be blogging about my experience with the Enneagram on Friday. Look forward to it! 

Complete Grace

Complete Grace

Unkept.

Unkept.